Spiraling Out of Control

My life has been spiraling out of control lately. Don’t you ever wish you could just step outside of your life and watch yourself spiral out of control without actually having to deal with the consequences? Two people quit at my work while Whitey and I were on a cruise with my family in the Caribbean. That would not be so bad but there is only seven people in my company. I have taken the brunt of the workload for the last two people that have quit, and it was torture. I don’t know if I will be able to do it again. I discussed making a huge change with the company with my boss. We need to do something. Everyone is miserable. We will see what happens.

Whitey and I are going through our 11 month issues, the ones where you try to figure out if you should go your separate ways or if you are in it for the long haul. He has been less than pleased with my trust issue lately and I have been less than pleased with his 39-year-old “set in my ways” attitude. I am hoping we pull through and are a stronger couple because of it. Does everyone go through this? Why can’t relationships be easy?

My family is doing great. I normally notice they are a source of a ton of the problems in my life, but for once, they are all happy, healthy and doing great. I think we have finally come to turns with my parents divorce and my mom’s new hubby after five years. It has been a long road. I am working on changing a great number of things in my life. I have slowly become someone I do not really like….and I hate it. Wish me luck. I have no idea where to even start.

Needy Girl

I was reading my 100 and I came across this:

19. I have a low tolerance for needy women. They bug me. I think women should take the time to figure out themselves before they get in a relationship.

I just realized this is me. I have become this needy girl. I am looking at my current situation and it makes me sick to my stomach. I have no idea how I got to this point and what the hell I am going to do now. Is there a way to become "unneedy" while you are in a relationship? Does/Can a single relationship make you this way?

Penny for your thoughts?

Trust Issues

Where do they come from? Why are they there? What if you know where they come from and can’t fix them and don’t know how? What do you do then? Continue ruining your relationships one at a time?