Thought the Blues Belonged in the South

Ever think at times in your life you might actually be depressed? This is one of those times in my life. Normally, I am the happiest, most upbeat person. I smile, I am positive and I let things roll off my back. Lately, that has not been the case. I have been really down lately, negative and in an overall uptight mood. It is starting to eat at me. Whitey has had to deal with the brunt of it, with me coming home from work and taking things out on him. We have so many things planned that sometimes I just can’t “take the night off.” It sucks. Last night was one of those nights. I am miserable at work, had a miserable day at work and brought it home. I arrived home to an apartment where my key didn’t work. My roommate changed the locks since she fired our maid, and she was not home yet to give me a new key. I trucked over to the offices, found out they were closed, rolled my ankle in the process and finally got a hold of the security patrol (it took them almost 20 minutes to finally let me in.) I had to rush to the gym, shower and go out to dinner with Whitey’s family. I was so nervous, overworked, stressed and overall just burnt out. Not a great combination. I did great at the dinner, put on my best happy face for Whitey’s family and they all loved me. Problem was it took almost all night for me to shake this down feeling.

It was back first thing in the morning when I thought of work. I thought I would feel better since I am going on girls weekend to Las Vegas with my two best friends E and D. Not the case. I am excited, don’t get me wrong, but not as excited as I normally am. Does anyone have any suggestions of how to shake the blues? Does birth control cause depression? I think I need to take happy pills or something. Either that or go to Vegas and get as absolutely drunk as I can.

P.S. My horoscope definitely is right on today.....You may feel less emotionally balanced now that the Moon is moving through Virgo again.

Ever wonder if those things are true? They have been pretty accurate lately.

Hot Massage Oil

Phoenix was a blast. Whitey and I are so good together. Jilly, I know exactly what you are talking about when you say your miss your love kitten five minutes after leaving him. I never thought I would be like this, missing a man right after seeing them. I also never thought they would be in my thoughts all day long. That is what is going on in my world….and it is fantastic with a little bit of cheese on the top.

Whitey and I went to get massages on Tuesday night. I am in dire need of finding a good way to relieve stress. I am MISERABLE at work and just need a way to let go. I thought massages would definitely accomplish that feat. With my great luck as of lately, it would so be that I got the HOTTEST MALE MAUSSUSE ever. As they called out our names, Whitey gave me the funniest look. The look of death and sadness. I felt bad, for a moment. Then perceived to take my clothes off for the hottest guy, while he rubbed oil and his hands all over my body. It was definitely not the most relaxing massage of my life at first. I was a little tense, due to the thought of Whitey plowing through the wall at any moment ready to pummel hot massager guy. Also, although I am head over heels in love with Whitey, I think it would have been hard for any girl to not have dirty thoughts in her head as hotness of the world did his thing. In a sleepy state, I walked out of the room looking like I had just hit the jackpot. Whitey laughed about it, said it was just his luck and stated that he can’t wait for the day he gets a hot massage chick. Funny couple situation of the week.

Our softball team has been kicking ass. Ever since getting killed in our first game, we have been knocking teams out of the water. We normally win by five or more runs every game. Each game, we head over to the local bar and get drunk afterwards. I always enjoy a burger and a beer. I have noticed (must I say this) that I have calmed down a lot since dating Whitey. Brother has noticed the most. He makes fun of me for actually being sober enough to function most nights we go out now. Funny how a great man and a healthy relationship with change you for the better. I am still not going to start knitting.

Blogging Bandwagon

I fell off the blog mobile for a while although I can't really put my finger on why exactly. I could blame it on the fact that I am really busy right now, but aren't we all? I have not been screwing around on the computer as much at work. I used to love writing my blogs while doing interviews with clients, but I noticed they would sometimes reiterate things said in an interview and I would barely be able to keep up with what they were talking about. I always want to blog at home after work but don't for the following reasons 1) Whitey-love spending tons of time with the man 2) tired-funny how sitting at a desk all day working mentally drains me 3) busy doing other things-normally reading magazines or meeting up with friends 4) lazy-no explanation needed.

One thing I realized is I miss blogging. I have been keeping up with my bloggers though. (shot out to Lizzle for giving me the much needed push to rev up my blogging engine again) Gosh I love your blogs. My comments have dropped off the scale drastically though. I realized blogging is also a way to vent and just sort things out. For the last few weeks, I have been in a slight state of depression. My aptitude to not blog probably didn't help that scenario very much. Anyways, I am back. In full force. I missed you lovies.

On to my life....As I was saying, I have been slightly depressed for the last few weeks. Can't really put my finger on why though. I work in hell and have Satan for a boss, my two best friends are leaving the company and I am terribly saddened by this, another girl I loved that worked here was fired last week, I owe the f*cking IRS money this year (this have never happened before) and I am over my head in financial problems now that all these medical bills came pouring in. Argh! I think I might know the reason why I am depressed. hehe

Whitey and I are amazing. I honestly did not think I would ever find someone that just gets me. And I am a really complicated person. I don't even get myself sometimes. Many of you know I am OBSESSED with fireworks. Whitey knows this so he got me a season pass to Disneyland and drags me down there to watch the fireworks a lot. I love it so so much. I look forward to walking through Disneyland, feeling like a kid, enjoying my Mickey ice cream sandwich. We are heading to Phoenix this weekend with my best girly D (one of my girls quitting hell soon) for baseball spring training. We are going to the Cubs vs. Giants game. I can't wait!!

Hope you all had a great St. Patrick's Day and drank way too much green beer. I was peeing green all day on Sunday.

Happy Birthday to the Mother

Whitey and I went to Vegas this weekend for my mother's birthday. It was a surprisingly relaxing weekend considering it was in Las Vegas. We went out with my sister Friday night to a local bar. She is having a rough time and just needed to talk. I don't think I helped much. She is the middle child, and plays the "woe is me" stance well. She thinks she has been treated horribly, as well as thinks my parents favor my brother and I. I laugh at this because my sister got into a ton of trouble growing up, including stealing my father's cop car and getting kicked out of high school. Both of those things are a major part of the reason she was not given a car like my brother and I, but she holds it against my dad till this day. Anyways, she ended up in tears bit he time we left the bar because she thinks I don't see her side. I do though. She goes to school and works part time. She is constantly asking my father for money. He is sick of supporting her though. He gives her half of her tuition for college, but she feels like he owes her more. I feel bad for him sometimes. He just retired and wants to make sure he has enough money for himself. He doesn't feel the need to make sure my sister is living the high life.

Saturday, Whitey and I went hiking in Red Rock Canyon. It was gorgeous. We had such a great time. My little brother and his girlfriend came with us, allowing Whitey to get to know him a little better. It was really cute, and I am so glad they like each other so well. Saturday night, we all went to my mother's house for dinner and cake. My step dad is a riot, one of the loudest, most outspoken people I have ever met. He smokes, drinks, swears and just acts out of control all the time. Whitey got a kick out of watching him. Whitey and I fell asleep at 11:00 pm on Saturday night in Las Vegas - weird I know. What it is like when Vegas is home. We drove home from Vegas with my dad and enjoyed a nice dinner on Balboa Island. Overall, it was a great weekend. I woke up this morning and went on a great run. I need to get back in shape. I haven't done anything in a few weeks. It felt really good and I had a ton of energy today. I am taking the SELF CHALLENGE again this year. It really worked last year and helped me get in great shape for bathing suit season in SoCal last year. You can join at this LINK.

Hope you all had a great weekend. I am off to the gym...

Monkey Business

Remember those funny monkey commercials for career builder? Well, my co workers and I are trying to lighten the mood in the office and she came across monkey email. It has become quite the craze in our office. I have made the decision that I am only talking to my friends via monkey email from now on. The link is below if you want to check it out.

http://www.careerbuilder.com/monk-e-mail/?mid=8210299

Just imagine a British monkey saying "The milkshake brings all the boys to the yard."

You will laugh until your tummy hurts.