Happy Halloween!!

Happy Halloween bitches. I am posting a scandouls yet highly entertaining picture from my weekend party excursion. Please enjoy because I will never post another scandouls pic like this one again....



Ladies, don't you wish all cocks were this big?!?

(No, I have no idea why the hell my costume was unzipped. I blame it on the alcohol)

Does Anyone in Hollywood Stay Together?

I know I should never be totally shocked by I was honestly stunned to learned that Reese Witherspoon and Ryan Phillippe have separated after seven years of marriage. I thought they were a strong couple and never saw this coming. It seems like no matter how strong the couple is, they can never make it if they are involved in the spotlight. This is so sad!!

I Heart Halloween Parties

I love Halloween. I love being able to dress up. I love being able to dress as slutty as I want and actually have an excuse. No one can judge, because it is Halloween. Ok, maybe people judge, but they shouldn't. This year I bought my costume online. In the past, I have always made them in some way, shape or form. Not this year. I didn't have the time to make a costume and I found so many cute ones online. So, being the sportsfan that I am, I decided to be a fantasy baseball player. Hence, this costume.....



Erin, Erin and I before heading out to the party. I have no idea what Erin is doing to Erin with her stick. :)



We went out to a costume party at a local bar in Huntington to support HILSA for Erin's law school. I had the time of my life. I even met a cute boy ;)
I can't wait for this weekend. I am going to a costume party with cute boy tonight, Wine tasting on the roof of the Staples Center on Saturday and hiking wiht friends on Sunday. There will probably be a costume party Saturday night as well. I am so excited. I think I am finally out of my rut. It took a few weeks, but I have succesffully moved on and smiled and actually meant it lately. Normally I put on a smile through all the shit. Now it is real.

Turning That Frown Upside Down

Have you ever received an email from a friend that made you really emotional. Emotional in a good way though. Like the way you felt after you first had sex. Or how you might have felt if you saw fireworks for the first time. Or how I have heard people feel after they have a baby. I received the most amazing letter from a friend today. The following is a small excerpt:

"I just want you to know how much I admire you. Not because I see myself in you, but because you have decided who you are and who you want to be as a person, and you have decided that the answer to that question is that you are going to be good. A good person inside, a good person on the outside."

Wow. Doesn't just reading that give you a smile? I love this friend, and amazingly enough, she had no idea exactly how much I looked up to her until yesterday. She is only of those amazing people that you meet that leave footprints on your heart. The kind that never go away. She is always happy, the friendliest person, and always sees the good in people. She does a ton of charity work and she is going to really make an impact on this earth. I can tell. I feel grateful for these type of people who enter my life. They move something in me and I am never, ever the same. Thank you.

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Last night I went to a charity event with my friend Erika. It was at a halfway house/shelter where homeless families live. We helped the kids pick out costumes, painted their faces and carved pumpkins with them. I honestly carved the best pumpkin of my life last night. It was amazing. I left in tears. It is amazing how happy all of those kids were and they have nothing, not even a place to live. They were so happy picking out their used costumes, while most of us bitch about the dumbest things. Thank you to Erika for allowing me to accompany you to something that changed my life. We can all make a difference. Think of all the impact you have everyday on the people around you. Everything does happen for a reason and every person you meet has an effect on your life one way or another. Think of the things you can do but just giving some of your time.

Tonight, I am heading to the OC Metro Hot 25 in Orange County party. I can't wait. My camera has no batteries or I would take lots of pictures. I will make sure to drink a glass of champagne in your honor.

Make Me Look Good

Hey friends of the blogpshere. Make me look good and check me out at my peep. In order to keep it up there, people have to keep visiting it I guess. Love ya!! Just click the link below and click on my picture (in hot pink)!!

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Thanks for the support!!

SAVE DARFUR

Please take some time to read this. It is something that has been on my mind a lot lately. I figured the least I could do was try to spread some awareness. Please realize that I am not trying to blame any party, any person, or group of people for what is going on. My only aim is to raise awareness and to support immediate action to help stop the humanitarian crisis that is happening as I type this.

If you would like more information: www.savedarfur.org is a great source.

WE CAN ALL MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!

BACKGROUND:

Darfur has been embroiled in a deadly conflict for over three years. At least 400,000 people have been killed; more than 2 million innocent civilians have been forced to flee their homes and now live in displaced-persons camps in Sudan or in refugee camps in neighboring Chad; and more than 3.5 million men, women, and children are completely reliant on international aid for survival. Not since the Rwandan genocide of 1994 has the world seen such a calculated campaign of displacement, starvation, rape, and mass slaughter.

Since early 2003, Sudanese armed forces and Sudanese government-backed militia known as "Janjaweed" have been fighting two rebel groups in Darfur, the Sudanese Liberation Army/Movement (SLA/SLM) and the Justice and Equality Movement (JEM). The stated political aim of the rebels has been to compel the government of Sudan to address underdevelopment and the political marginalization of the region. In response, the Sudanese government's regular armed forces and the Janjaweed – largely composed of fighters of Arab nomadic background – have targeted civilian populations and ethnic group from which the rebels primarily draw their support – the Fur, Masalit and Zaghawa.

The Bush Administration has recognized these atrocities – carried out against civilians primarily by the government of Sudan and its allied Janjaweed militias – as genocide. António Guterres, the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees, has described the situation in Sudan and Chad as "the largest and most complex humanitarian problem on the globe." The Sudanese government and the Janjaweed militias are responsible for the burning and destruction of hundreds of rural villages, the killing of tens of thousands of people and rape and assault of thousands of women and girls.

With much international pressure, the Darfur Peace Agreement was brokered in May 2006 between the government of Sudan and one faction of Darfur rebels. However, deadlines have been ignored and the violence has escalated, with in-fighting among the various rebel groups and factions dramatically increasing and adding a new layer of complexity to the conflict. This violence has made it dangerous, if not impossible, for most of the millions of displaced persons to return to their homes. Humanitarian aid agencies face growing obstacles to bringing widespread relief. In August 2006, the UN's top humanitarian official Jan Egeland stated that the situation in Darfur is "going from real bad to catastrophic." Indeed, the violence in Darfur rages on with government-backed militias still attacking civilian populations with impunity.

On July 30, 2004, the UN Security Council adopted resolution 1556 demanding that the government of Sudan disarm the Janjaweed. This same demand is also an important part of the Darfur Peace Agreement signed in May of 2006. On August 31, 2006, the Security Council took the further step of authorizing a strong UN peacekeeping force for Darfur by passing resolution 1706. Despite these actions, the Janjaweed are still active and free to commit the same genocidal crimes against civilians in Darfur with the aid of the Sudanese government.

International experts agree that the United Nations Security Council must deploy a peacekeeping force with a mandate to protect civilians immediately. Until it arrives, the under-funded and overwhelmed African Union monitoring mission must be bolstered. And governments and international institutions must provide and ensure access to sufficient humanitarian aid for those in need.


WHAT YOU CAN DO RIGHT NOW!

Right now, candidates for public office are traveling the campaign trail, listening and describing their visions for the future. With Election Day just two weeks away, we must speak up and ensure that Darfur is on their agenda.

One way to bring attention to the genocide in Darfur is by writing a letter to the editor of your local newspaper. That's because as candidates run for office, they read the letter to the editor section closely to find out what is on the public's mind.

Write a letter today. Make your voice heard and help make a difference.

Click here to write a letter to the editor of your local newspaper. Let's make sure Darfur is a top priority.

Writing to your local newspaper is easy. And with your help - and the help of other Darfur activists like you - we can ensure that letters about Darfur will appear where candidates will read them.

It is critical that candidates for public office in your area hear your call to stop the genocide in Darfur.

Already 400,000 men, women, and children have been killed. Millions of people face starvation, rape, and the constant threat of violence.

Me In A Nutshell

1. I LOVE fireworks. I honestly get amazed. My favorite holiday is the fourth of July. Fireworks, friends, bar-b-ques and good weather. It doesn’t get any better.
2. I was born and raised in Las Vegas, the city of sin. I feel like I turned out pretty good.
3. I sleep on one side of the bed, but love my head in the crack between two pillows. I think it is because I hope one day I have someone occupying the space next to me.
4. I do not like anything spicy. I can’t handle it. I get a stomach ache after I eat spicy food.
5. I love animals. All kinds. Puppies make me the happiest. I love their puppy breath.
6. I can’t wait to get married.
7. I love when people remember things and when people actually take the time to listen. Amazing how much you can surprise someone and make their day just by listening to the subtle hints of what they want.
8. I stop and smell the roses.
9. I love sports, especially football. I am a huge Raiders fan. I am one of very few girls that can actually keep up with men and their sports conversations and facts.
10. I am rather stubborn. This has been my downfall at times.
11. I finally learned how to surf. One of the many things I hoped to accomplish in my life. I could definitely get better and hope to, but I was just excited to stand up.
12. I am obsessed with pictures and take pictures of everything and everyone. I hope I one day I get to take a photography class. I love to look at pictures too.
13. I love the little things that people do for me.
14. I have an amazing memory. I remember the most random facts about people. I am also great with directions. I do get lost sometimes despite this fact.
15. I am always cold.
16. I sing in the shower. I stopped doing this since I moved in with my current roommate. I might start singing again tomorrow morning.
17. I am surprisingly intelligent. I used to amaze myself at school sometimes.
18. I love the movie Garden State. I always get sad at the end, but hope to find that love that “just fits.” The song at the end is my favorite song. “Let Go” by Frou Frou. So so good.
19. I have a low tolerance for needy women. They bug me. I think women should take the time to figure out themselves before they get in a relationship.
20. I worry a lot. I also have really bad anxiety.
21. My family is the most important thing to me. Even though we are broken, I think they are perfect. Others would not agree. They just don’t know us well enough.
22. I always catch punctuation errors and it bothers me when people misspell words.
23. Right now, I am where I want to be.
24. I love ketchup.
25. I have never smoked a cigarette in my life and loathe cigarette smoke. Funny because I grew up in Vegas, where you can smoke everywhere.
26. I'm loud. I talk loud. I laugh loud. I hate when people shush me. Especially if it is because they are embarrassed by me. I would rather them not hang out with me at all then.
27. I hate sleeping alone. It is the only time I truly ever feel lonely.
28. I am very clean. I hate when things are disorderly and I misplace things.
29. I saw a really bad accident recently that changed my life. It was the first time (and I hope only time) I saw a dead person. I now am more likely to say yes when someone asks me to do something since I never know when I won’t get the chance to do it anymore.
30. I have never had a cavity. I must have good teeth genes.
31. This could be because I love milk. Fat free, organic milk at that.
32. I get car anxiety with crazy drivers since the accident.
33. I love my eyes. I also love looking at other people’s eyes. You can tell a lot by looking in someone’s eyes. Eyes are the first thing I notice when speaking to a guy.
34. I would rather be happy than rich.
35. I am obsessed with the beach. I sometimes wonder why people from California do not appreciate the beach. It is so relaxing and perfect.
36. I love traveling. I went backpacking through Europe and it changed my life. I would like to go back.
37. I love my little sister more than life itself. I do not know what I would do without her. Life would be so much different. I love my little brother too. He is still a baby in my eyes, but he is all the sudden a lot taller than me.
38. I have had my heart broken...more than once.
39. I have broken someone’s heart. I regret doing that to someone once it happened to me.
40. I love collecting good quotes and have a quote book to write them all down.
41. I love angels and angel wing necklaces. I have four of them, the necklaces. They are my favorite. I also think I have a guardian angel. They are doing a great job.
42. Ice cream makes me smile.
43. I have always wanted to be one of those people that relax at Starbucks and read books all day. I would even like to meet a man who does that. The problem is I get bored and distracted easily.
44. I love care packages. My mom sends them to me a lot. She might not know this but every time it puts a huge smile on my face.
45. I get butterflies in my stomach every time I am driving home from Vegas and go around the corner of the mountains on the I-15 and see the lights. I love that feeling.
46. I analyze song lyrics. I sometimes fall in love with songs that have a horrible tune but great lyrics.
47. I love 80’s music. Especially Blondie and Madonna. I also love dancing at 80’s night. I always love meeting people who love dancing to 80’s music and don’t get embarrassed because of that fact. They are always so much fun.
48. I got a full ride scholarship to college for volleyball. I was very thankful, but gave it up after my sophomore year. My family was falling apart at home and they were more important. I sometimes wonder how different my life would be if I stayed there. I am overly happy with my decision to leave though.
49. I love lip-gloss. I am constantly putting it on.
50. The Coldplay concert was the best concert I have ever seen. I think they are a great band.
51. I wish I had the guts to move to Europe for a year.
52. I am a hopeless romantic.
53. I love conversation. I wish I met more people who loved to hold a good conversation. It will be the most important thing I look at when selecting someone to spend the rest of my life with.
54. I also love to laugh. That will be second.
55. I try to live life to the fullest and do everything I have ever wanted to do. You only get one shot.
56. I love meeting people that change my life. I also love interacting with smart people and people who do charity work. I strive to be more like them. I have recently met a friend who is one of those people and she has no idea.
57. I am a daddy’s girl.
58. I think I have the greatest friends and hope they know how much they mean to me.
59. I am a book nerd. I really enjoy reading. I sometimes sneak off to the park during lunch and read.
60. My hero is my grandpa, who we call Papa. He battled cancer at 78 and won. He is the most amazing man in the world. My dad is pretty amazing too. They are both truly great people and are not selfish in any way. They would both give you the shirt off your back. I idolize these two significant men in my life.
61. I love volleyball and wish I still played it as much as I used to.
62. I do not really like my nose. People have told me I have a good nose. I think they are lying.
63. I love the show Lost. I think it is genius that they have me anticipating the next episode as much as they do.
64. I bite my nails. I have been trying to stop for years, but something major or stressful always happens that gets me starting again. Right now I am doing pretty good.
65. I despise cheating and will never forgive someone for it. This has a lot to due with my parents.
66. I am a movie buff. I really enjoy watching movies. If someone mentions a movie that I have not seen, I normally have to go watch it. It is really relaxing to me.
67. I relax by reading magazines. Any kind of magazines. I love Glamour and Self the most. I sometimes read commercial real estate magazine for fun. It helps me carry on conversations with industry people at work.
68. I have lost a few friends along the way. I am ok with that. People change.
69. I would love to learn how to knit so I could make scarves. I love scarves, even though I have never lived anywhere I needed to really wear one.
70. I am a very sexual person.
71. I love wine. I don’t know that much about the different kinds of wine or regions, but I would love to learn.
72. The one place I have to visit before I die is Australia. I can’t wait.
73. I have developed a deep love for Indie music since moving to California. I appreciate all genres of music, but most Indie music has really creative words that grab me.
74. I am obsessed with birthdays. I don’t think people appreciate their birthdays that much. They should embrace them. You only get so many. My birthday celebrations last a whole month long. Some people get annoyed by this. Others love me for it.
75. I have finally learned how to deal with my mother. I had trouble forgiving her for what happened, but I finally am able to move on. It feels wonderful.
76. I hate gambling. I don’t understand how people can robotically throw their money away. I am thankful for gamblers though for paying my taxes.
77. I love hiking. I miss Red Rock in Vegas for that reason. I am having trouble finding a hiking partner in California and people yell at me for going hiking alone. I get mad at mountain lions for that.
78. I love the smell of rain. I also love thunderstorms. I used to get so excited when there were thunderstorms in Vegas. The lightning is so beautiful in the desert.
79. My favorite ice cream is cookies and cream.
80. I sometimes cry myself to sleep because I miss my family. At the same time, sometimes I look forward to going back to Newport to get away from them.
81. At times I do not think before I talk. This has gotten me into trouble. I expect I will put my foot in my mouth a few more times in my lifetime.
82. I am a tall girl, and I love being tall. Most tall girls don’t like it. I think it is beautiful.
83. My favorite color is red.
84. I hope my brother realizes how talented he is. I love the kid so much. I do not think he knows this. I should tell him more.
85. I am very passionate. When I find something I love doing, I put my all into it. I think that helped me get the scholarship to college.
86. I strive to be a better person everyday.
87. I love children and babies. I hope to have a few in the future. I hope it is while I am semi-young so I can be a fun and crazy mom. I think kids need to have fun moms so they laugh more.
88. I love going to church. Not Catholic church though. Christian church. I miss my church in Las Vegas.
89. I am not a fan of mustard. I don’t really like olives either. I eat just about everything else.
90. I am a people person. I am really outgoing and love being around people. I also like my alone time. I can normally have fun doing just about anything. It is one of those things I love about myself.
91. I do not like arrogant people. Or people that make someone feel less than they are. Even if you are beautiful or rich, you have no reason to be arrogant. Just be nice. It makes you so much of a better person.
92. I have a tattoo of a dragonfly on my back. I love dragon flies. I got it with my two best friends and my sister. I don’t regret it at all. I won’t get another one though.
93. I partied and went out a lot growing up and am getting really sick of partying. It is part of the reason I moved away from Vegas. People party a lot in Newport too though. I would rather cuddle on the couch with a comfy blanket sometimes.
94. I love reminiscing, especially with my sister. We can laugh for hours about growing up and some of the things she or I have said. This always makes me smile. I miss her now that we live apart.
95. The first time I went surfing, a dolphin swam right up to me. It even let me pet it. It is one of my favorite memories in Newport so far.
96. I love Disneyland. I think it is because of the nightly fireworks. It always makes me feel like a kid.
97. I love going to concerts.
98. I am really happy with my life at the moment.
99. I am thankful for everyone who has taught me something, from my teachers, to ex boyfriends, to friends and even enemies. I try to learn something from everyone I come in contact with. I think I am a stronger and better person because of this.
100. It makes me smile that someone cares enough about me to read this.

Pigs Do Fly!!!

So I guess pigs do fly. The Raiders freaking won a game yesterday. HERE is an article on the win, or Arizona Cardinals horribleness at that. This makes me smile, if only in a small way. Hopefully we will pull off a few more of these for the rest of the season.

Positive Drinking

THIS article just changed my entire mood around. I am not kidding. It says that research shows that drinkers make 10-14 percent more in salary than non-drinkers. That is so so great to know. I am going to hold my head high at work tomorrow!!

Thanks, ABBEY!!

Downfall of the Single Life

There is only one major downfall of being single, but it is a really hard one for me to deal with personally. Loneliness. The feeling of loneliness. I hate the fact that I long for someone to share my bed with. And no, not in a slutty way, but in the real way. So far, since I have been single now for a straight seven months, life has been great. I have done a ton of the things that I have always wanted to do and really gotten a chance to fix and improve upon the things that were wrong with me. The only problem is laying in bed at night, when things get quiet. Paul and I used to lay in bed and laugh together about random things that happened throughout the day. I miss that. Just that. Nothing more really. I only feel lonely when I am in bed. I hate that feeling.

I saw Paul today at Jack's first birthday party. It was extremely uncomfortable. He said hi when I walked in and we just ignored each other the rest of the time. It was even more awkward because we were the only single people there. Everyone else was either married or in a serious relationship. It was a really odd feeling, being at a party where the only man you can hit on is your ex. *Laughing*

I thought I would do better when I saw him, and be one of those girls that can carry on a normal conversation with someone she shared a house with. No, I am not one of those girls. I did not want to ask him about his life because I didn't want to know. I was glad he did not bring anyone, because that would have made it worse. It can always be worse.

Large, Comfy Sweat Pants and Cushy Slippers

I am exhausted. Both mentally and physically. It crept up on me and I have not been able to shake it all week. Maybe its due to that time of the month. Maybe its due to my new obsessive work out schedule. I have turned into one of those people who have to go to the gym everyday. I could not go on Tuesday night because of the movie. I could not go Wednesday night because of the hockey game and our intern Adam coming to visit. I could not go last night because of Lucky Strike and bowling. I have been one of those people who wake up abnormally early in the morning to hit the gym because I feel guilty for not going the night before. I was there at 6 am this morning. I am insane and I realize this. I am determined to drop those pounds, and they are some f-ing stubborn pounds. They just sit there laughing at me. Like some sort of wicked joke. Yeah keep laughing. I'll get you.

Last night I went bowling with coworkers at Lucky Strike. It was fun, but I was so quiet due to being so tired. I tried to enjoy myself, but just couldn't. I have really pushed through to get out of this rut and completely overbooked myself to every event and thing my friends at doing. All the way till Halloween. I am heading to Oktoberfest with the intern and my coworker E tonight. I went last year with Paul and his friends. Memories. I hate the memories sometimes because it seems like I can only remember the good times sometimes. I have to push the horrible memories back to the forefront to keep myself moving forward. I have done so well.

I am currently talking to someone new. I know him from friends and he grew up in Vegas like me. We have not seen each other in almost two years. He lives in LA and wants me to hang out with him after the wine tasting event there next weekend. I am contemplating. I am not sure I am ready to deal with men just yet. They have beat me down, discarded me and I have not met any great ones lately and I am completely turned off. I have been doing so good by myself that I don't want to fuck it up by trying to throw a man in the mix. I know I have nothing to lose. So I will meet him and hang out. Just hang out. We can take it from there. He makes me smile though. I know that much.

Happy Hump Day!!

Last night I went to see THE DEPARTED. It was so so good. You have to go see it. Seriously. Leonardo DiCarprio and Matt Damon were so good. They are the next DeNiro/ haha yeah right. I just said that cause it was in Bill Simmons MAILBAG. I am obsessed and have to read it every week. It was a good one today. You sports fans should check it out. Honestly though, go see that movie. I was hooked until the end!!

Tonight I am going to the Ducks, Detroit Redwings game. I am so excited. It was my roommates birthday yesterday and she is from Detroit so we decided to go support the hockey players. Can't wait.

ALso, I am getting no where on these goals but have vowed to actually accomplish tons of self help shit in the near future. I need to get out of this rut and the only way I am going to be able to is by changing things. Here goes...

Mind: I did take one weeknight off to fully rejuvenate so I did actually accomplish this goal. I am going to put it as my goal for next week though too cause I would really like to make this a priority as my week/weekend look swamped.

Body: I am going to head to the gym three days this week, and work out this weekend by doing fun outdoor activities like surfing, hiking or bike riding. I have done this goal, but it is not working. I am turning it up and working out five days next week. I am going to get in great shape and really change my body back around.

Soul: I still have to write my mom a letter forgiving her for everything she did during the divorce. She gave me the most amazing letter for Christmas and she deserves to be forgiven. She is an amazing person and I want her to know it.

Wish me luck on my changing adventure. See you guys on the flip side, or tomorrow, whatever comes first.

Weekend Recap

I know, I know, its Wednesday, but I have been busy so deal. Here I go about my fun, exciting weekend in Vegas.

Friday night the drive was so smooth I thought someone was messing with me. I kept waiting to hit traffic but surprisingly, there was none. I had even prepared by downloading tons of new music to the old ipod and making a list of people I needed to call back from the week. Nothing. Smooth as butter. I arrived in Vegas around 9pm and hung out with my sister, got ready and decided where to go. It was not really a major decision actually....we were headed to the Carnival Bar at Harrah's before you knew it. For those of you that have not been to the Carnival Bar at Harrah's I have one thing to say...just go. They have the best bartenders in the world (Christian has actually won the contest) and they flair, have a live band that rocks, play all different kinds of music including some 80's, its outside in Vegas and everyone is so much fun there! The bartenders always go around giving free shots, flair, and just love to get people wasted. Since most of the bar is outside, we were a little nervous about it raining. After we had been drinking for a few hours and had crossed over into the drunk zone, it began raining. The band kept playing and we dancing in the rain. It might have been one of the best and most fun memories in my life thus far. My sister, cousin, best friend and a plethora of other friends and people dancing and singing in the rain. We were drenched, had makeup dripping down our faces and still were having the time of our lives. I love the rain in Vegas. It never freezes you. Here are some fun pics....

Here is the group before the rain and drunkeness began....
Keith, Amanda, Greg, my sister, me, my best guy friend Los and my cousin from Chicago Sean.


Here is me, getting a shot, after the rain dancing. The funniest thing about this pic is the bartender actually feeling me up while giving me my shot...


We went to Buffalo Wild Wings at three in the morning for wings and food, and then I was back there at 11 am for lunch. I am seriously obsessed. If someone told me there is only one thing I could eat for the rest of my life, I would pick Buffalo Wild Wings Sweet Bar-B-Que wings. So So good. Saturday night I attended my friend's bridal/bachlorette party. I have never seen a male stripper in my life so that was very entertaining to me. It is funny how most women try their hardest to steer clear of the stripper while men would love to have the women dancing and kisses them the way males do. That guy was all over us. Biting nipples, kissing our necks, playing with whipped cream. He walked in in a cop outfit. It was hilarious. See...

After the bridal shower, we headed to JET NIGHTCLUB in The Mirage to party. We ended up sitting at a booth with BRIAN URLACHER, yes the Brian Urlacher from the Bears. He was partying in Vegas before his Monday night game that he completely rocked at. He was friendly but I was way too embarrassed to take pics of me and him. I consider that extremely cheesy for some reason. He has a massive head though. He was not as big as I thought he would be in person, but he is still huge. We ended up grabbing breakfast around 4 am and heading back to our room. Fun night and a great time with some awesomely hot women. The pic below makes me look like a whale but it is from our limo ride to the hotel. Good times, great oldies.

I was incredibly hung over the next day and drove home in the evening. I don't know who's genius idea it was to close the I-15 onramp to California on Sunday evening but the smart ass made me stuck in traffic for three hours. Not the best hangover medicine. I made it home safely though and had a lot more fun than I thought I was going to have. Good weekend, fun memories.

Da Bears!!!!!!!!!!

I headed to the gym during half time to start working out and ended up on the eliptical for a hour and forty five minutes during THE BEST MONDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL GAME EVER!!!!!!!!! My parents are both from Chicago and I have always identified for the Bears, although I am a true Raiders fan at heart. Lizzle-you would appreciate that. I am so proud of them for the year they have had so far and have secretly cheered for them since the Raiders are not even an NFL team this year. Then tonight happens. The Bears came back and won after being down 20-0 to the Cardinals at half time. I went to the gym thinking the game was over....but it was only the beginning. It turned out being the best game ever, and I could not get off the machine. Everyone in the gym was the same way. Yelling, cheering, working out longer than they ever anticpated. I love football, and tonight is one of the reasons why. The Bears Rock. You can check out the game details HERE.

Propelling Out of a Rut

I am officially stuck in a rut. I cannot figure out what it is, but I am just not happy. Everyone is noticing. I cannot place my finger on what is wrong. I have not been going out and doing as much as normal, and I think part of it might be lonliness. I don't need sympathy though. I decided this morning that I am pulling myself out of it. Never wait for others to cheer you up....go and do it yourself. I made a list of things I would like to accomplish this week, including some of the goals that I set that keep getting thrown to the way side. I am offically in a workout routine as well. I have gained seven pounds and I honestly cannot figure out why. I have been working out a lot more lately. E thinks it is the fact that I am gaining muscle, but it has still gotten me down in the dumps. I hate gaining weight, but I know what I have to do now. Just keep eating well and working out. I will lose the weight eventually.

In other news, I will post all the pics from my fun and exciting weekend at home. I was not excited about the drive or the weekend at all, and it ended up being a lot of fun. I had the time of my life. (This is another thing I don't understand about my rut. I had a really good weekend.) Until then....

A Prayer Is In Order

Everyone, please keep CERTIFIABLE PRINCESS' son, Nicholas, in your thoughts and prayers this weekend. He is sick again and needs all of our positive support!!!! Stop by and give her some love!

Cabo...Here I Come!!

Happy Friday the 13th! I love skulls and The Nightmare Before Christmas so every Friday the 13th, I always wear my skull ring and cute Nightmare Before X-Mass stuff.

So it is settled. I am going to Cabo. I am really excited, especially about the surfing aspect of the trip. I am getting better and I head the surfing in Cabo is great. Softball hottie, I will make sure to watch out for the riptides. Dora and I discussed the whole situation and she is fine with me going, as long as I don't tell her about the ex and the crazy things he did (which I am hoping I will not have to witness). In other news, I am heading to Vegas today for a bachlorette party and to hang out with my cousin Sean. I can't wait!! I should have plenty of good pictures for you guys to enjoy. I am very nervous about the drive, and have been having really bad car anxiety lately. I hate living in fear so I am forcing myself to drive home to overcome it. Keep me in your prayers.

I have been working out a lot this whole week and really concentrating on myself. I have a lot of things I want to get accomplished in the next few weeks so I have been laying the ground work. I am getting my body prepared to lose 10 pounds. Yes, ten. I have been working out all week and am going to start watching what I eat and doing an insane amount of active activities to get in shape. It has been a long time coming and I am finally ready to tackle this goal. I have a birthday party for Baby Jack's first birthday next weekend, where I know I will have a run-in with the ex. I see him from time to time at the gym, but this encounter will be out of gym clothes. I am going to look hot and happy!! I love the taste of revenge without any effort. I want to make him see what he lost, and see it in its best light. I have come so far and can't wait to see what the future holds.

BTW-I normally don't acknoledge people's rude comments due to my high self esteem, but I can't help but crack up at Scott's comment about "Jack's" last name. Scott, you rock!!

Mini Dilemma.....Advice Needed!!

So my roommate was dating this guy all summer, and I ended up hanging out with them and his best friend a lot. His best friend is a lot older than me, but we all get along GREAT. These two guys are seriously awesome. They are always doing something and always invite me to join them. We always end up having a blast.

My roommate and this guy broke up a month ago. I am still friends with the guys, and have hung out with them a few times since. Her ex is the one that is teaching me to surf! My roommate never seems bothered by it at all. The dilemma comes with this....his best friend recently invited me on a trip to Cabo with them next month. I am in need of a vacay and since they have a house down there, it should be within the budget. I told my roommate about it tonight and she seems alright with it, but I am still against the wall. Is it alright for me to go? Does this make me a bad roommate/friend? Where do you draw the line in this situation?

Phantoms with umbrellas in the door

I love putting men in random situations and finding out how they act. I did this to 'A' on Friday night. My dad and sister were visiting, and we decided to go to a nice dinner with our former boss who owns a jewelry company. He decided to pick us up in his Phantom so we could enjoy cruising the town in style. 'A' happened to call an hour before dinner so I randomly invited him. I met his parents one night when he didn't tell me, having his mom scare the shit out of me by opening the door, so I decided to give him his shit back. My dad actually really liked 'A', whereas our old boss said he was really stuck up but nice. 'A' seemed to handle the whole dinner with style and class, which surprised me. He was a little nervous at first but loosened up and had a blast. Brownie point for him.

My sister and I took some fun pictures after taking the Phantom for a spin. I cannot comprehend ever owning a car with an umbrella in the door and tables in the back seat, but the car was SWEET.....



In other news (I seem to be moving backwards) my work Gala on Thursday night was a blast. Everything went great and the mall opening was fabulous. Here is a pic of my sister, E and I at the Gala Fundraiser....



Last but definitely not least, if you get a chance stop by LIZZLE'S page and give her happy birthday wishes. She is one year older but even wiser on this great day in October.

Have a great Hump Day!! I will be back to post my updated goals after lunch. Peace!!

Can You Get a DUI For Eating and Driving?

Us before the UNLV vs. UNR tailgate and football game. We got our asses kicked. Check out how rad my little sister is. One of the reasons I love that girl...



We were eating jello shots on the way to the game. The traffic was so bad off the freeway that we kept throwing them to the hot guys in the other cars. The question of the day became...can you get a DUI for eating and driving? Classic memories.

Foul Mood and Cookies and Cream Ice Cream

I didn't eat dinner tonight. I was in such a bad mood that I just ate a bowl of cookies and cream ice cream and called it a meal. I worked my butt off all weekend doing the PR and advertising for the grand opening of a mall. I am worn out and still sick from something my body has decided not to want to get over. I have a pretty funny story to tell about my Friday night but I will leave it for the morning when I am in a storytelling mood. I also have new pics.

I am not really sure why the foul mood but I think it has a lot to do with men...which in fact pisses me off even more. 'A' is playing games, thanking me for being "so patient" on Friday night. The problem is I do not really want to be patient. Get over your ex girlfriend and have fun with me or move on. I am not a doctor's office and have no waiting room. I am done waiting. Figure it out. 'J', the lovely gentleman I thought was fate has not called. I even decided not to have rules and gave him a friendly call Friday night inviting him out with me and my sister to a local joint. No answer, no call back. Ouch. F*cking ouch. I am so sick of it. Honestly. Where did all the good guys go? Cause I am on my first plane to that place. The men in Orange County suck so far. I am unimpressed.

I am working on myself because that is what a girl is to do when men are being assholes. I ran tons of errands, went shopping at lunch and cleaned my house tonight. I read a book and watched some television. I am even going to wake up and work out in the morning. The thing that eeks me is this loser men situation. Why does a girl's happiness ride on men sometimes? Why can't I be one of those girls with the "go fuck yourself" attitude while I ride my white horse away in the dust? How does one become like that? I am willing to sign up for lessons.

My sister tells me to stop looking and I will meet someone. That is so freakin hard for me for some reason. Anytime I am out of my house or work, I am looking. There are too many good looking men in the OC not to. This is not a good thing, according to her. I have no idea how to stop looking....it is seriously that freaking hard for me.

Fate...Or Just Random Occurrences?

So things have been a little crazy with me lately. Sometimes, during times like this, I like to think that God (or whoever you believe in) is entertaining himself at my expense. Some of the things good, some bad. Since Sunday was such a horrible experience, he decided to throw me a bone and do one of the craziest things he has done in a long time. Here goes this miraculous story...

When I was a freshman in college, I went to visit Shannon at ASU for four days for a mini vacay. It was so fun. I met a ton of new people and really was able to relax. Before we went out on Saturday night, I was telling her about my most recent dating experiences and how interesting and random the men I date are. (See, nothing has changed since). Anyway, she said it is going to randomly happen where you meet this amazing man, and I am going to have no idea what to do with him. Not more than ten minutes later, this amazingly good-looking young man walked up to the bar and ordered a drink right next to me. He turned and started talking to me, and we ended up having the most amazing time together. 'J' is my sort of perfect catch....was attending law school, tall, funny, plays volleyball and has a great sense of humor. We talked on the phone a lot after this, but I was living in Las Vegas and he was in Arizona. He came out to visit me a few times in Vegas and we had the time of our lives.

One random night, I lost my cell phone, which included his number. I had to get a new cell phone number after that, and we lost touch. This is where the random act of serendipity begins. I would randomly mention him at times, telling my sister and Shan how bummed I was that we lost touch. I even mentioned to Shan at Fiesta a couple of months back that it would be awesome if we ran into him, since his family is from Santa Barbara.

Here is where God begins to mess with me. Eliza and I, with our love for the 80's, went to 80's night at Blue Beet for the first time in almost 2 months. I needed a fun and relaxing night, and have adopted kind of this new live for the moment lifestyle. We were dancing and having a great time, and I turned around and my heart stopped. 'J' was walking towards the dance floor. I walked up to him and asked him if I looked familiar, and at first, I could not figure out where I knew him from. When it dawned on me, I almost fainted. I could not believe it. He laughed and said he couldn't believe I recognized him. Then he started joking about some of our past memories, and told me he moved to Huntington about two years ago. Holy shit!! He lives in freaking Huntington. I could barely contain my excitement. We hung out all night, dancing and sang to the 80's and had a great time. At the end of the night, he got my number and told me we have to hang out. Holy crap!!

I honestly cannot believe I ran into him. Do you guys believe in fate? How random is that? I hope he calls. :)

Today is also Goals Day (per Jill)

I actually got a few accomplished last week. I have begun In Cold Blood and can't wait to really start getting into the book. I love reading. Once I start a book, I cannot put it down. In regards to the body post, it did not work so well. When I wake up early, it is still dark and I get a little nervous heading out to the back bay in the dark. I have been working out though so I am going to revise this goal to align new current goals. I wrote my papa a card yesterday and am putting it in the mail today. So yeah!! I kind of did a better job. Here are my new goals for this week:

Mind: I am going to take one weeknight and fully rejuvenate. Work has been so crazy and stressful lately that I need one night a week of me time. I deserve it.

Body: I am going to head to the gym three days this week, and work out this weekend by doing fun outdoor activities like surfing, hiking or bike riding.

Soul: I am going to write my mom a letter forgiving her for everything she did during the divorce. She gave me the most amazing letter for Christmas and she deserves to be forgiven. She is an amazing person and I want her to know it.

Hope you guys have a great hump day. I am off to start accomplishing my goals!!

Downer Post...Don't Read If You Are Depressive

This weekend was one of the worst weekends of my life. I think Vegas is cursed because of Paul. Ever since then, when I go home, I am never happy. Something shitty always happens. Here is my story...

Friday
Friday morning I boarded a plane and headed into Sin City. My sister picked me up at the airport and we passed out in her bed because we were both so tired. We got up and met my dad for lunch, where my sister picked a fight with him and caused him to leave early. So great. We then went to the gym, where I wore my little sister's shoes. Not my smartest idea. I have two HUGE blisters on my feet from her small shoes. One of the blisters got infected and I had to get medicine from the doctor to make it better. Not good. We headed home to get ready and I headed to my little brother's football game. He did good but they lost. Then someone's brother got shot after the game and we hightailed it out of the stadium. I was supposed to go on a date with 'D' but due to his assholeness, that did not take place Friday night. Instead, I headed to a local restaurant, Sapporo, to have some drinks with my sister and catch up. It was fun and really relaxing, and one of the only fun things that happened in Vegas. We saw a few old friends and just had a great time.

Saturday
I woke up at noon and headed to Buffalo Wild Wings. I have to go there every time I go home because they don't have them in Vegas. They have the best wings. After BWW, we headed home to get ready for the UNLV, UNR football tailgate. We left really late, with 250 jello shots in tow. There was so much traffic on the freeway and the exit for the stadium that we just started eating jello shots in the car. After sitting in traffic for more than an hour, we arrived at the stadium sloshed and ready to party. I met 'D' finally at the tailgate. He was cute, nice but I was still really weird about him. I ran into a ton of friends, drank plenty and headed with D and our old friends into the game. I ended up losing D (he would not wait up for me) and my sister and Amanda. I ended up being drunk by myself in the student section the whole game. I found old guys friends from high school and hung out with them for while, but I ended up calling D and having him pick me up from the game. D and I headed to Roadrunner, a local bar, to eat and hang out. My sister met up with me and hung out with D, who was quiet and down. He said he was tired and decided to leave. He sent me a text message right after he left saying he wishes we had more alone time. So I decided to invite him back to my dad's to hang out. He came over and while I was talking, starting text messaging people. I stated that it was kind of rude, so he asked if I wanted him to leave. I told him he knew where the door was. So he got up and left. Just like that. About 15 minutes later, I received the following text message...

"You are the most amazing and beautiful woman I have ever talked to...I left cuz I could fall for you and a long distance thing would crush me. You are too perfect. I am really sorry."

Wow. For one, what an a-hole and for two, what an idiot. At least he was honest, but he could have told me that like months ago. He knew I lived in Newport. He kept telling me all night how amazing I was. Then he pulled that shit. I am so over it. At least I know the kind of person he is. If I never met him, I would have always wondered.

Sunday
I did not get a ton of sleep, and had to head to the airport bright and early. Due to the long lines at security, I missed my freaking flight. I went back to the counter to try to change flights and was told everything was oversold. Why do airports do that anyways? I was furious. I tried Southwest and Jet Blue, but nothing worked. After four hours in the airport, I called my sister to pick me up. I then randomly called a friend who I thought was in Vegas for the weekend. He informed me he didn't come, but his friends were driving back to the OC today. I decided to be spontaneous and hitch a ride with a car full of men. Fun. This is where the most devastating thing that has ever happened to me took place. We were driving along on the I-15, the freeway of death, when all of the sudden there was smoke everywhere and a loud noise of metal and crashing. Once the smoke cleared, there was a car that rolled upside down 100 feet in front of us. There was another car on its side near that car and a third car on the other side of the freeway out in the desert rolled over. We sat stunned for a moment, and noticed no one was really getting out of their cars to help. John yelled for everyone to get out and help one car. I ran after him towards the car on the other side of the freeway since it was farthest away from everyone. Once we reached the car, we found no one inside. That is when I saw it. There was a man laying face down in the desert about 150 yards from the car. We ran up to him and realized he was not breathing. John tried to find a pulse, while I sat there speechless and crying. John turned to me and told me he was dead. I lost it. I have never seen a dead person and could not control myself. John hugged me and told me we couldn't do anything else to help, but we should try to help the other people. When we got back to the other side of the freeway, the men were trying to flip the van on its wheels since there was a women pinned in the car. They got the woman out, although she was not breathing, but her husband was killed. It was the most traumatizing day in my whole life. I could not handle seeing anything else horrible in the third car, so I sat in the car and cried while everyone helped as much as they could. There were a lot of people, nurses included helping the victims, so we decided to get out of everyone's way and head home. No one talked for hours. I couldn't stop crying. It was the worst day of my life. Everyone who is reading this, please wear your seatbelts when you are driving. That man might have lived if he would have been wearing his seatbelt. He had front and side airbags and his roll bars saved the car from being crushed. I was so upset that he didn't even have a chance. It really hit me hard though, and you never know what could happen, so I am going to start smiling more and really living. I hope no one else ever has to see something like that.