I'm a Wreck

I am a f*cking wreck today. I had to get up at 5:30 am and I still have not recovered. I held a groundbreaking on a project for our client. It was exhausting. It was held in San Diego, close to the border of Mexico. For those of you that don't know the California map, it is really freaking far from Orange County. I felt like I was driving forever!! Now that I just got back in the office with a pile of crap to attend to, I thought I would take a brain break and blog.

Last night D did something really shitty. I love sharing my shitty men stories because they make me laugh. I seriously really encounter these men ladies. It is baffling. So I get a text message at 2:30 am (note: I woke up at 5:30 am for the event and D knew this.) that said something to this extent:

"Heard about some of your ex boys tonight. Hate to bother you right now but I must say I am disappointed. Would have been good to know that you lived with someone and all that shit."

Um, what?!? Are you f-ing serious? Are you seriously quizzing me about my past? And when did we open the ex-files? I don't remember opening any ex files. Is this guy f-ing serious?

The funny thing is the guy he is talking about is not even Paul. He would love to know I lived with Paul, we talked about marriage and he still lives right down the street from me. Granted I never see him and try to avoid him at all costs, but still. Is this guy serious? Do you really have to open the ex files when you are just dating? Do you ever have to open them? I always just ask why did you end your last relationship and do you two still talk? That is it. I could care less about the rest. We are 24 years old, have all had one night stands and I doubt you would want to know in detail all the men I have been with. So leave it alone!! I can't believe he sent me a message like that. We are supposed to go on a date on Friday night. Should I just move on with my life and get over this guy? Why do I keep finding men like this? Where are the normal ones?

And I know today is goal day. But I'm a wreck, have not accomplished any goals I set and have officially felt bad about it. This week, right now, begins change. I am relisting my goals from last week in the hopes that I will get something done this week. Here goes...

Mind: I am going to finally read "In Cold Blood" by Truman Capote. I have been wanting to read it for a while. I am heading to the library after work.

Body: I am going to get up an hour earlier each day and go bike riding in the back bay for at least a week straight. I have to do it for myself since I have been so stressed out lately and need to get back into better shape.

Soul: I am going to send my grandpa pics of us with a card. He just survived cancer and I think he is the strongest person on the planet. I should tell him I think that before he gets older and can't comprehend how amazing I think he is.

By the way, our cat died last night. It tried to downd itself in its water bowl. Once my sister picked it up, it puked so they took it to the vet. They had to put it to sleep last night because it had serious gall bladder problems. My dad cannot keep anything besides his children alive, and that is only because they feed themselves. Enough with my problems. There should be a more positive post tomorrow.

Racing For a Cure

Have you ever been so busy at work you just want to walk out and head to the beach? That is me today. I would love to go home, grab my towel and a surf board and head to the beach.

Weekend recap:
Friday night I went to see Little Miss Sunshine. It was hilarious. I loved it. I actually was laughing so hard at the end I got tears in my eyes. It has been a long time coming since I saw Old School in theaters. Nothing has gotten me since then. Nothing. Saturday I woke up and went surfing. I am getting so much better. Pretty soon I might be sponsored. You guys should get my autograph now. :) The rest of Saturday was boring and I laid out on the couch Saturday night so I would be well rested for my big run!

Sunday was the Susan G. Komen Cancer Run. It was so much fun. Erin and I ran our little asses off and actually finished in a decent time. I want to thank those of you that donated. You guys are amazing! I honestly feel like I have friends on here that mean a lot. Thanks again for your support!!

Last night I headed out with a former pro-bowl football player friend to watch Monday Night Football. He is fun to watch football with because he yells at the TVs, and knows what is happening:

"Watch his back, Brian. He is handling off the ball."
"Damn, Brian. What the hell are you guys doing. How did you not see that coming."
"You guys call your self an NFL football team? You belong at the JV level."

I was laughing the whole time. Made up for a busy, shitty Monday morning.

I am going on a date this weekend with 'D' and I have never before been so excited to meet someone I didn't know yet. We talk all the time, and he seems like a really great person. I will let you know. Can't wait to head home to Vegas for the UNLV vs. UNR game. It should be a weekend of great pics and funny stories.

Breaking News!

Associated Press (9/20/2006, 8:30 AM PST)

OAKLAND , (CA)--Oakland Raiders football practice was delayed nearly two hours today after a player reported finding an unknown white powdery substance on the practice field. Head coach Art Shell immediately suspended practice and called the police and federal investigators. After a complete analysis, FBI forensic experts determined that the white substance unknown to players was the GOAL LINE. Practice resumed after special agents decided the team was unlikely to encounter the substance again.
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I am a die hard Raider fan but this had me rollin on the floor. I can always appreciate a great sports joke. Too bad it is almost true this season.

Steping For A Cure

I was bored out of my mind last night. I have never been so exhausted that I fell asleep at like 6 for two hours. When I woke up, I forced my roommate to watch Garden State because I wanted her to see it so bad. She ended up lovin it. I was stoked. Hopefully she won't mind my watching it once a month from now on. I am addicted.

Today I had to go to a big work event all day in Corona. I am counting down the hours until I can head home. I actually woke up and ran this morning (Yeah, one down Jill, two to go.) I have not gotten around to the library yet, but maybe I will do that tonight. I am for sure writing my grandpa this weekend. I just ordered all the pictures I am sending him from snapfish. See, really trying to make a difference.

I am running in the Susan B. Komen Breast Cancer Walk on Sunday in the OC. I am really excited. I put together a team so if you want to donate to our team, visit at the following link-The Tumor Terminators! I am trying to do more charity events and really getting my finances in order to be able to travel and do more. One step at a time, one step at a time.

Still no words from 'A.' No sweat off my back though. I am sick of being on his terms. He only seems to call me if he is bored, lonely or needs someone to hang out with. Well, not anymore. It is on my terms now, and it doesn't look really good in the cards for him.

Moving Towards The Better

Sorry I have been MIA for the last few days. I actually have been swamped at work and have not made it home before 11 pm the last two nights because I decided to go out instead of relax at home. Monday night I went to a PR Party in LA. It was lame, but the venue, The Geisha House, was cool. We headed to the Belmont afterwards for food. It was great to catch up with my co-worker and just chill with a girlfriend. It made me forget my trouble with men, haha, and my non existent love life for the moment.

In honor of Jill, I am participating in the Oprah-like adventure of naming three things you can change about yourself, one for your mind, body and soul. So here are mine:

Mind: I am going to finally read "In Cold Blood" by Truman Capote. I have been wanting to read it for a while. I am heading to the library after work.

Body: I am going to get up an hour earlier each day and go bike riding in the back bay for at least a week straight. I have to do it for myself since I have been so stressed out lately and need to get back into better shape.

Soul: I am going to send my grandpa pics of us with a card. He just survived cancer and I think he is the strongest person on the planet. I should tell him I think that before he gets older and can't comprehend how amazing I think he is.

Wish me luck. Can't wait to start changing things for the better. Thanks, Jill. Great idea!!

Dolphins in the Freakin Ocean

So Friday night was pretty mellow and fun. I went to a birthday party for two girlfriends at a Mexican Restaurant. I steered clear of anything resembling alcohol since I was still feeling shitty from my Thursday night excursion. I headed home early to relax and get a good nights sleep. I had gotten a call from a friend to go surfing the next morning and since I have wanted to learn for a while, I decided it was my best bet. So I wake up at the butt crack of dawn on Saturday morning and head down to Huntington Beach. We grab our long boards and paddle out past the break. I have only surfed a few other times, so I caught a few white wash waves to warm up. When we finally got out there, Alex told me to chill on the board so he could explain some stuff to me. Then he smiled, told me not to freak out, and told me to turn around. There was a freaking dolphin like two feet behind me. I could not believe it. It swam right under my board and chilled by us for a while. There was a pod of like 10 or 15 dolphins out with the surfers all morning. At one time, there was like four around me and Alex told me to jump in the water. They swam right next to me and I even got to pet one who seemed to really like me. I was overjoyed. I have never had a more amazing experience in my life. Still can't believe I got to do that. It was surreal.

After surfing, I headed home to take a shower and get ready for the Taste of Newport. It is a big festival of food and fun from all the local restaurants. I had a ton of friends come over and predrink at my house and then walk over. We all drank tons before we left because we had heard alcohol was pricey at this event. We ended up having a really great time, although I barely remember it. I ate a ton, danced to the Go Go's who preformed, and got way too drunk. I ended up running into my ex, while intoxicated, which was so bad because I basically just blew him off. It was horrible. Oh well.

The next day, we woke up early and went to brunch at Bayside Restaurant in Newport. I have had Dodger tickets for months, and had already invited 'A' to the Dodger game. We were talking and he mentioned that his sister was in town and he took her out Friday night to show her around Newport. I felt so shitty for believing Kurt. It was A's freaking sister, not another girl. I apologized to him for being so shitty to him lately and we ended up having quite a blast at the Dodgers game yesterday. I am probably going to back off and let it cool, but at least we are still civil. That helps. Makes me think there might still be some good guys out there. After my dolphin experience, I am now going surfing next Saturday morning too. It was so amazing!!

Wine and Cougar Watchin Don't Mix

So our night of wine tasting turned into complete drunkeness. The wine was so great at the restaurant that we ended up buying a few bottles. My co-workers and I ended up getting a little drunk. We then headed over the the Cougar Watching bar, The Quiet Women. Boy was it a sight to see. So many women just preying on men. I think the men enjoyed it more than they should have.

My co-worker Christine and I kept accepting drinks from men from every which direction, which turned into us busting out of the bar and heading to a restaurant across the street. We sat down at a table with a group of men and started helping them eat their dinner. They were having such a great time with us. That is where the fun begins. Christine and I were relying on this drunk scooter service where a guy on a scooter comes and picks you up, drives your car home and jumps back on his scooter....all of this free of charge to Newport residents. Well we must have gotten the number wrong because it was out of service. Not knowing what to do, we asked the group of guys to kindly drive Christine and me home and follow someone driving her car. It worked. They were awesome and took great care of us.

Everything was fine and dandy until I opened an eye this morning. I think I had the worst hangover of my life. I could barely move. And since our boss knew we were going wine tasting, calling in sick proved to not be an option. I had to battle through the day, which I did half out of it and trying to plan events. Not a good combo.

Anyways, I am completely done with 'A'. A friend called me tonight to let me know A was out with another girl and all over her. Great. Icing on the cake. What an a-hole! I can't believe men sometimes.

Wine Tasting and Cougar Watching

So there are not any interesting updated in regards to 'A'. You would all be so proud. I did not even give him a second thought or a phone call yesterday. He totally doesn't deserve me. He needs to work a lot harder to win me back over.

I did however talk to 'D'. 'D' is the baseball player who lives in North Carolina for the season and lives in Vegas during the off season. He went to my best friend Shannon's high school and seems to be a really nice guy. We started writing emails back and forth and it graduated to the phone. We really click and he really makes me smile. You never know right? Well we are meeting at the end of this month. Can't wait to finally meet him in person. I have seen pictures of him and feel like I know him pretty well. We have a lot of mutual friends too which makes it even better. Wish me luck and I will keep you posted on the updates.

I have been staying busy and just having a blast lately. I worked out last night and talked to D for two hours on the phone. And I even hate talking on the phone too. We both can't believe how well we get along and how easy it is to talk to each other.

Tonight I am going wine tasting at our client's restaurant with co-workers. After that, we are going to the Quiet Woman in Corona Del Mar to go cougar watching. If you don't know what a cougar is, check out THIS great website. The Cougar is a common term for a forty-something woman who’s single, financially secure, and always on the lookout for relationships with younger men. You will be totally entertained. It should be fun. I am hoping to get some funny pictures.

Why Can't I Just Move Along?

So A called me last night around 6. I was napping and just ignored the phone call, not really sure what I am supposed to say to him.

"Hi, how are you? Thanks for standing me up."

Argh. So I just went along with my night. I worked out, ate dinner and decided to head to the hot tub around 9. I met two very nice men in the hot tub, one of which works in my industry. We talked commercial real estate for a while and then got kicked out of the hot tub due to curfew. Why the hell do they have a hot tub curfew? It is not like someone is going to drown. And there is a gate with a key so you don't have to worry about kids. and it is not like the hot tub is that close to any apartments. Oh well.

I talked to my little sister on the way to Erin's to watch Nip Tuck. 'A' beeped in. Again, I didn't answer it. I guess I was playing games in my own way. I hate games but I am not sure my sarcastic madness would have went over with him well. Now I am in a pickle. Do I wait for him to call me tonight or just call him at 8? I am not sure why, but I have really strong feelings for him. Argh. Men. I know, I know, I should just move on and find someone who would never do this kind of shit to me. This is the thing I just don't understand about myself. I can dish that advice to others but can't use it for myself.

Additional Proof Men are Idiotic

Do you ever have the thought that although everything in your life may be going right, one fucking guy can really put you down and make you feel bad about everything else? That is my life story right now. Besides work getting busy and us being really understaffed, I began dating a boy, A, that I was actually really excited about. He is tall, handsome and has a great sense of humor. That is where I guess it ends.

So far, in the short two weeks we have been exchanging words or as some of you call it dating/speaking, he has successfully stood me up twice. Yes, not once, but twice. The first time he said that he forgot we were supposed to attend a bar-b-que together. I gave him the benefit of the doubt. Last night I was pissed when he once again never showed up. I have not been that mad in a while. I was meeting friends for the Raiders (damn) vs. chargers game with him and he just never called. I am not one to wait around for a guy so I just went to meet my friends by myself. I called him around 9 to see if he was ok or even alive. He stated that he totally forgot, had a bad day, his dad is sick and his phone died. All in one conversation. Could not believe the guy actually pulled out that many excuses all at once. Couldn't he have just picked one of the best ones out of the bunch?

Anyways, I was so mad at myself for letting it get to me and was really starting to like the guy. Don't get me wrong, I am a strong girl and will never let a guy run me over, so I am back on my feet and moving along. Moving along with a small chip on my shoulder. What a jerk!

Everything else has been fabulous. I am enjoying my life, my new friends and my glowing career that keeps getting busier and busier everyday. I barely have any time to blog. It bothers me sometimes. By the time I get home and go to the gym, I am exhausted. But you deserve more, my loyal readers. To that, I am going to pick my hurt little self off the ground and grab some drinks with friends tonight. Either that or pour a glass of wine and watch sex and the city. Why the hell are guys so dumb? The boy had a great girl and he let her slip right through his overgrown hands.

Party Pics

So, being the party girl I am, I have a batch of pics from my birthday party at Blue Beet as promised. Please enjoy....

This is Amanda, Shan and me before the big party. I loved my birthday dress...


Here is the big dinner at Blue Beet....


Here is me and my sister, with Adam's head sticking out.....


Some of us enjoying the dance floor........


Here is my drunk sister after Keith tried passing out on the sidewalk.....


The day after at my complex's big pool party. Boy were we hung over........